Forgive me for venting...

It's probably my own fault that people feel like they can just dump on me or ask me to do stuff for them. Most of the time it's because I ask them if there's anything I can do to help make life easier or to help them figure out stuff or to spend time with them. How I arrive at these things is that I pay attention to the stuff going on in their respective lives and ask them to lean on me if they would like. None of us can get along without each other and it's nicer to have someone to help carry the burden sometimes.  

Forgive me for venting...

Recently, and if you know how I roll, I have made it quite obvious to those around me that there's just been an awful lot going on in my life. I'm going to make a little list here without going into too much or any detail about each point.

1. My mother fell and broke her leg
2. My mother had surgery
3. My mother was tranferred to a rehab unit for PT
4. I've been rummaging through my mother's condo for paperwork that could help her/us
5. I've been working with an elder care attorney to get updated papers drawn up for a Power of Attorney and a living will for mom.
6. I've helped coordinate a meeting with the aforementioned attorney to meet up with my mother and to arrange to have a long-time friend serve as a witness during the signing of papers
7. I've been working with mom's financial advisor to see what things I need to know in case we place her in an ALU (assisted living unit)
8. I've been reviewing paperwork from a variety of ALUs to see what might be the best option for mom
9. I've been visiting mom after work and on the weekends
10. I've been checking in on a friend from cancer club who has been going through a particularly rough time and is probably having a part of his leg amputated soon
11. I scheduled and completed an MRI and a bone marrow biopsy on Presidents Day since I had the day off from work--and I also spent some time meeting with the mother's financial advisor 

All of this has come down the pike in the last nine days. NINE DAYS! I have also been working full days at my job, did my weekly blood draw on Wednesday and my weekly chemo infusion on Friday. 

Seriously, forgive me for venting...

That's a lot. A whole lot. And yet, despite all of this, I've had requests from people in the know asking for help, asking for help for other people and to schedule social visits because I clearly must have the time to slot them in. Sometimes I find myself stunned that people think I am capable of taking on all these things--even when it's obvious that my schedule is beyond full up.

I have not spent a single moment in in the past week-and-a-half, nor will I spend one in the next few days to take care of things on my to-do list. I have a thing coming up next week (details "sometime") and I need to get the house prepped for it. I haven't been able to take even an hour to do that and it's going to take at least two days. I now have about 4-5 hours in order to complete this task this weekend. This "mystery thing" is something that's really important to me. I'm freaking out and at the moment, am not looking forward to it happening at all! This is really disappointing to me because I really should be more excited about it. 

I'm sure I'll get there, but at the moment, I see a daunting list of things I need to attend to and I just want to hide under my bed and not come out. 

I hope you'll forgive me for venting. Things will get back to normal.

Basically, I'm setting fire to my inbox and am here to remind you that I love you and I will be able to help you again in the near future, but right now... I'm not Superman.